pretty low right now.
I can't be fucked with anything. My positive attitudes have disappeared completely, I am lazy, moody and I basically loathe the direction things have taken. In short, everything has gone tits up.

Quitting smoking is the hardest thing I've ever done. This is my fourth day and I can't stand it. I can't wait to be free from nicotine but I am absolutely miserable without smoking. I am so weak.

I'm hopelessly head-over-heels in love with someone, but he's a complete cunt. I know I can never have him, but he's the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last thing I think about before I go to bed. I love him. That's that.

I'm in a total rut of misery and depression and apathy and every other negative emotion you could probably think of. I hate this. I hate me.