Monday, 3 January 2011

The underlined ones apply to me.

My Personality


■I’m loud

I’m obnoxious

■I’m sarcastic

I’m Cocky

■I cry easily

I have a bad temper

for the most part, I don’t like people

I’m easy to get along with

■I have more enemies than friends

I’ve Smoked

I’ve smoked weed

I drink coffee

■I clean my room daily

My Appearance:


I wear makeup

■I wear a piece of jewelry at all times

■I wear contacts

I wear glasses

■I have braces

■I change my hair color often

■I straighten my hair often

I have piercings

■I have small feet

Relationships:



I’m in a relationship now

■I’m single

■I’m crushing

■I’m in love
I’m always scared of being hurt

■An ex has physically abused me, at least once

I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t

I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did

■I’ve been in love more than two times

I believe in love at first sight

Friendships:



I have a bestfriend

I have at least ten friends

I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend

I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend (not physical)

I can trust at least five people with my life
Experiences:



■I’ve been on a plane

I’ve been on a train

■Someone close to me has died

I’ve taken a taxi

I’ve taken a city bus

I’ve taken a school bus

■I’ve gone bungee jumping

I’ve made a speech

I’ve been in some sort of club

I’ve won an award

■I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight

I’ve been in a physical fight

Music:



I listen to R&B

■I listen to country

I listen to pop

I listen to techno

I listen to rock

Im one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it

I hate the radio


■I buy CDs sometimes

Television:



■I spend at least six hours a day watching TV

■I watch soap operas daily

■I’m in love with Days of Our Lives

■I’ve seen and liked the OC

■I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill

I’ve seen and liked Americas Next Top Model

■I’ve seen and liked Popular

■I’ve seen and liked 24

■I’ve seen and liked CSI

■I’ve seen and liked Everwood

Family Life:



■I get along with both of my parents

■My biological parents are still together

■I have at least one brother

■I have at least one sister

I have at least one step brother/sister


■I have at least one half brother/sister

I’ve been kicked out of my house

I’ve ran away from home

I’ve made my parents cry

I’ve lied to my parents

I’ve lied to my parents about where I am

I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing

I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded

■I don’t live with my parents

■Parents are screwed up and gone

Hair:



I’ve been brown

I’ve had streaks

I’ve cut my hair in the past year

I’ve dyed my hair in the past year

■I’ve been blonde

I’ve been red

I’ve been light brown

I’ve been medium brown

■I’ve been blue/green

I’ve gotten my hair thinned

■I use conditioner

■I’ve used Silk Therapy

■I’ve used hot oil treatments

I’ve curled my hair

■I’ve straightened my hair

■I’ve ironed my hair

■I’ve braided my hair

School:



■I’ve yelled at a teacher

■I’ve been suspended

■I’ve had an in-school suspension

■I’ve been sent to the principals office

I’ve walked out of class

I’ve skipped an entire day of school

■I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class

I’ve failed a test

I’ve cheated on a test

I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test

■I’ve failed art

■I’ve failed PE

I’ve failed math

I’ve failed science

■I’ve failed another class

A teacher has called my parents

Sunday, 2 January 2011

2010 was pretty shit, but also a very ... eyeopening year. I have done more things this year than in any other. I think this is the year I actually started to grow up.

I mean, as you'll see by my blogs, someone really truly broke my heart this year, and in all honesty, I'm still trying to come to terms with it. It's been 7 months now but I still replay every last detail in my head. It's sad really. I've met so many amazing new people and yet I cling onto someone who has hurt me beyond words.

2010 was definitely the year I fucked shit up. I lost friends, lost boyfriends, started smoking, and put all my lost weight back on again. I don't suppose those things matter now, they're kind of trivial, but I guess everything happens for a reason. Probably to teach me a lesson, but I never fucking learn from my mistakes, which is something I need to kick. I'd probably benefit from losing a stone and stopping smoking too. Meh.

Now I think about it, weirdly, 2010 was also when I properly made an effort to get a grip on my own life. I was working REALLY hard at school, like, studying every single day and sometimes through the night, and I got pretty good GCSE results. I then went on to work 7 different jobs.

I royally fucked things up at college between September and December and I hope I can salvage something. I just haven't been trying. I'd been skipping lessons to go take drugs and go shopping and have coffee and blah blah blah, it's fucking pathetic. I need to make an effort in college now, a proper effort.

2010
The last few weeks of Coombeshead.
Going to Dawlish...
Camping.
Parties.
Starting college.
Protests + occupations ♥
Gigs.

I mean, these things don't seem much at all. Not to you. But they do to me, they mean more to me than anyone, and I miss the memories and the people so much. I wish I could rewind and be 16 again and live all the memories again. I've fucked things up, things now are nowhere as good as they were. I want my old friends back. I'm actually sobbing as I write this, I really can't believe how much everything's changed. I don't want to grow up. I hate EVERYTHING that's going on right now. It's all gone to shit.

2011 had better be fucking incredible.
Fuck this.