:)

Well, obviously, things had to fall a little flat.

I've fallen a tiny bit in love with somebody, and my best friend there might be dropping out :/
I got hideously drunk at 5pm yesterday and I don't care to count the number of times I've cried in the last 48 hours. However I need to remain optimistic, it's only the end of the first three weeks.

Made a few more friends ♥

Also, GOOD NEWS EVERYONE :)
i'm quitting smoking. Once and for all. I hate it. It's expensive and disgusting and I can't stand it, I'm so ill and haven't had a full night's sleep in weeks, because of the coughing which is getting progressively worse. So, as of today, 30/09/10, 17 days behind schedule, I am giving up smoking.

One my lung capacity has increased a little, I plan to go jogging when it's dark. I feel so dumpy and unsexy and I'd love to be a size 10 or something. Maybe even 8 at a push, it'd mean losing my boobs, but I hate the fucking things.

So I need to lose two stone, maybe three. I've already lost a little weight ^^
I actually heard from someone that college life is the time where you either put on loads of weight, or lose loads of weight. I seem to be taking the healthier direction :)

I'm finding German easier because I have Jeremy :) and my other lessons aren't so bad either. But fucking hell I wish Stuart would slow down with the coursework haha.

All in all, the first month of college has been a stressful and surreal, yet somewhat enjoyable, experience.

<3

Things really are looking up :)

I LOVE COLLEGE ♥

Life is so different. Although I haven't changed yet as a person, I feel so grown up.

We have free periods. One of mine is from 12:15 until 14:45. It sucks. But going shopping when you'd normally be at school ... well, that's pretty cool, unless you're skint like me. Then it's hard to kill the time.

I've made friends :) I'm not gonna say "new friends" because it sounds like I intend to replace the old ones. Nobody can ever replace my Gary ♥ but they're really really lovely people and we all get on so well.

I can't believe I was in such a rip over my first fucking day xD It really was a stupid little overreaction and I absolutely love it there. It's just a complete change of lifestyle. It's brilliant.

Now, the subjects. I LOVE graphics. Stuart is a little frightening at times and very intense, but he's a BRILLIANT lecturer. Probably my favourite. French is fine, English is fine, and ugh ... German is unbearable. I can't believe I've forgotten SO MUCH. People in my class did their GCSEs last year and they're whacking out these massive SEHENSWURDIGKEITENTASCHENRECHNERGEFAHRLICH words and I'm just like, what?

btw, that wasn't a real word. That was actually "sightseeing", "calculator" and "dangerous" combined into one enormous, threatening word. They're a few of the words that I remember from two years ago.

So yeah, I'm considering dropping German. I'll see how it goes ^^

Richie is in my tutor group and my English class and I'm on my own in the other classes, but it's nice to not have any distractions. It's nice also to not be the best in the class. In French everyone was like, "WHAT DOES THIS MEAN" and I couldn't stand it, but now I'm surrounded by mature intelligent people and I feel somewhat that I belong there.

Our group is SO weird.
Richie, the master of accents, sexual innuendo and racism. ♥
Jeremy, German, but speaks better English than us.
Mat, who is very clever and keeps insisting that I sit on his knee and wear his glasses.
Callum, he blames England for the fact that he's cold.

and me, I'm just the black chick who gets sexist remarks and racist jokes from left right and centre. Strangely, I don't mind. It's so so good, so refreshing.

I hope things stay this good.

:)

"So I have somethin' to say, to all of you who have had something nasty to say about me, or other women that are built like me, women that sometimes or all the time look like *this*, women whose names you know, women whose names you don't, women who've been picked on, women whose husbands put them down, women that work, or girls in school ... I have one thing to say to you. KISS. MY. FAT. ASS."
- Tyra Banks ♥